As random as it can get...

Ironical that I should return to this,the land of my best friend on the 8th of April.I wonder why this day makes me feel so alone and lost,so empty and worthless and so..not me.
That's been the approximate summation of my day today,and seeing that I haven't used these words before in any of the wonderful days that made up my 18th year...its not surprising that I'm back to visit my old friend.
I see my last post and finally,maybe accurately (is that what they call an oxymoron?) attribute the cause of this loneliness to the date.Its never going to leave me alone I suppose,I'm subconsciously going to relive it every year..but hey!That's alright.I've learnt a lot over the past year that will help me deal with it :
I've learnt to adjust and accept.
I've learnt to channelize my emotions and let the happy times take over.
I've learnt to give unconditionally.
I've learnt to revel in the glorious feeling that it gives me in return.
I've learnt to control that dreadful temper of mine.
I've learnt to apologize if and when I lose it and to erase that all-controlling 3 letter word.
I've learnt to forgive and forget.
I've learnt to to be humble and modest.
I've learnt to delete all the bitterness from the past.
I've learnt to laugh and find joy in all the little mundane activities of the world.

And errr....





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